Monday, October 27, 2014

Photo Friday 2014 ~ Week 43 ~

This post is 5 weeks and 3 days late.  Just now I had to look up when my last Photo Friday post was and I didn't even realize that much time had passed.  I'm going to try to finish up the year now that I realize there are less than 10 weeks left!  What?  How is that even possible?!  I feel like I now need to start Christmas shopping.  I usually wait until the last minute and this year will probably be no different.  I know you are all probably wanting an update on my health and I will just let you know that I am going to start chemo soon, but I am feeling fantastic as of right now.  I'm sure that will change, but it's only temporary.  It will go fast (I hope) and then my hair will grow back slow (I hope not).  I hope I will learn some things from going through it and I will be able to touch people I come into contact with.  That's my prayer at least.  I'm not exactly looking forward to it, but I am looking forward to getting it over with, so there is kind of a weird sort of anticipation in the wait.  So far, I've just done a lot of reading about what to expect and I cut my hair.  I figured it would be good to get the kids used to seeing me with short hair so that it won't be so shocking to them later on.  I've had short hair before so it wasn't really that big of a deal and I actually really like it.  Go to my Instagram if you want to see a pic.  Everyone tells me it makes me look younger, so yay for that!  

This post is all over the place, but I really just wanted to share some photos I took on Friday of my kids.  They have been amazing through all of this.  They are very sweet and caring with me and they get worried a little bit here and there but really all they need is a few words of reassurance and they are good.  I try to keep to their routine as much as possible because I think that's important for kids and for me, honestly.  I want us to still go to the park and do school and all the normal stuff because it really just helps us all to feel normal in a situation that is anything but.  So, I'm going to stop rambling now and just share the pics already.  

I feel like these photos are almost boring in their normalcy, but it's what I'm craving right now, so I guess it makes sense.  Here's my boy doing some schoolwork on the balcony.  He caught me taking pics which is why he covered his face.  Stinker.

My cutie.  She wasn't in the mood either!  Her mad face is actually pretty cute.  I love her eyelashes in that one on the left.

Her brother got her to smile again.  She's looking so grown up and pretty lately.  Or maybe I'm just being sentimental.

They posed themselves and requested I take this one.  I'm so grateful for these two and their silly antics and sweet smiles.  They make my days so full.

I'll be back next week but maybe not on Friday. We've got a big weekend planned. ;)

Friday, October 10, 2014

Beach Days are the Best Days

I know things have been a little quiet around this blog lately.  I have so much to say but it's so hard to put it into words.  I was recently diagnosed with breast cancer and it has made my life crazier than normal.  I don't want to downplay it like it's no big deal, because obviously it is a big deal.  It's just not everything.  This isn't going to become a blog about cancer.  My life isn't going to become all about cancer.  It's something I'm going to fight and get through and I will look back on and reflect on how it changed me and my family (hopefully for the better).  Already in the few weeks that I've known about it I have experienced almost every emotion you can think of and I've learned a few things in the process.  First and foremost, that God is with me.  He is my strength and my refuge.  I have received countless texts and emails and Facebook messages from friends and family who are praying for me and I think I am finally beginning to realize the extent of the love of my brothers and sisters in Christ.  It is so overwhelming and I am so humbled to have so many praying for me and concerned for me.  To everyone who has reached out to me I want to say thank you, even if I may not have responded to you at the time, your messages and gifts and prayers and meals are so appreciated. I won't share all the medical details on this blog as I'd like to keep some things private, but know that I am healing already and your prayers are being answered.  I have gotten better news at every turn and though I still have a ways to go in this journey, I know I won't go it alone.  What a comforting thought.

I'm so glad we moved to the beach before all this happened (I know that wasn't an accident, but providential).  The beach is seriously the best place for me to go when I'm feeling down or in need of healing.  It relaxes me so much and I'm able to put things in perspective with the vastness of the ocean spreading out before me with it's steady rhythm.  These photos are from one of those healing days recently when I had doubts and fears overwhelming me.  It was just what I needed.  My favorite 3 people surrounding me with love at my favorite place.  What a blessing.  I hope you enjoy these photos of these precious moments even a fraction of the amount that I do.  I'll try to keep up with posting to this blog as I can.  I hope to get back to my normal Photo Friday posts soon.  In the meantime, keep praying for healing because one thing I've learned through all of this is that God truly does hear and answer our prayers.


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